I tried so hard to not talk about this show a lot. It’s overdone, it’s overhyped, I get it. But I love it with all my heart and for a good reason, which I decided I will share with all of you. I by no means think this was the best show in the world, as many people have made it out to be. Just putting that out there, so I don’t seem like someone blinded by the fanbase.

I genuinely never thought I would be remotely interested in a show such as this. The very first time I heard of it was about this time last year, when I was sitting in the dentist office waiting for my brother to be done. I think I was on Twitter and I saw Funimation’s Fall Dub lineup, this show being among them. I clicked on it and read the synopsis, deciding it was going to be the same as any other sports anime, which I’d also decided I didn’t like. I don’t know why I have such a vivid memory of this, but I just do.

It was only after seeing the immense hype over the show on Twitter that I decided to look a bit into it. Even then, I said I had no desire to watch it. My friend did decide to see what all the fuss was about in maybe October or November of last year, and told me that I should watch it too, but I put it off. It was January I finally did, and it has literally changed the way I view the world. Not to sound dramatic or anything.

I’m going to tell you the story of how I went from being an ignorant homophobe to the person I am now.

About two years ago, a specific time I remember was on Valentine’s Day and I was walking around the mall by my house. I saw two girls, wearing matching couple hoodies, and holding hands. Now, if I were to see this today, I wouldn’t think a thing of it. Back then, I physically looked away and avoided them. It truly hurts me to think back on how I used to be. I was about fifteen years old at that time, and I was already filled with such hatred.

Fast forward to about a year ago. I had this mindset where I thought I was accepting of people in the LGBT+ community. But really, I wasn’t. What I told myself was that I was fine with it, if I weren’t to see any of it. I was just the same as the year prior.

I thought it was fine. I thought the way I saw things was entirely okay. It wasn’t. If I truly agreed with it, I would have no problem seeing people who were trans, or gay, etc. But at this time, I was still a bit disgusted by it.

Then came this wonderful show, Yuri on Ice. It’s been done to death, I’m fully aware. But this show changed something in me, and I’m a ton happier because of it.

January of this year began my journey of acceptance.  I went through being a bit put off by people of LGBT+ to all of a sudden being entirely involved and practically a member. (I discussed this in my LGBT+ Representation in Comics post)

After watching the show, I became so obsessed with the fandom and any sort of post relating to it. Because of that, I got used to seeing a canon gay couple. From there, I ended up becoming fascinated by the LGBT+ community. And, if you don’t really want to read my post linked above, I think I’ve realized I’m aromantic/asexual. Which, sometimes is included in the community. So, Yuri on Ice has given me quite a journey.

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When I’d been told about the show, I was wary about watching it. I knew how popular it had become, and for some reason, I tend to avoid incredibly popular shows now. And, the only reason I decided to watch it was due to my friend bugging the heck out of me to watch it. I had no idea what I was getting into, and it’s now a fandom I’ve been in for nine months.

Another thing this show has really helped me with is coping with my anxiety and depression. Currently, I’m in a bit of a depression, as I lost my very first job because of something I couldn’t control. I know I can get through it, but it’s damaging my motivation.

As I’m sure most of you know, there are characters that deal with these. Specifically, Yuuri is shown multiple times with anxiety attacks, and seeing those happen made me feel a lot better. When he has them, others don’t think it’s a big enough deal to start crying over, but to him, it’s a huge deal. And, I have first-hand experience with this. That ugly, screaming crying is a real thing, and it happened when I heard my old manager tell me the news about my job. I kept my disappointment hidden when I heard it, but once I hung up that phone, I broke. It was so bad that for the past three days I’ve had a sore throat. I skipped my college class that night because I wasn’t in a mindset where I could drive.

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During the months of March, April, and May, I was in this weird state where I was so depressed for no reason, I didn’t even post anything. I didn’t realize how long it had been until I posted my first post for May. I feel this in a way relates to the emptiness Victor felt when he realized that there was nothing to his life besides winning gold medals. Obviously, I was not at the extent he was, but I can relate to that feeling. It was strange to feel a connection to his character, since he seems so unreachable. But when it hit me that what I was feeling was so close to what he felt, it encouraged me.

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So, there’s my little rant on Yuri on Ice. Not sure if anyone’s too happy about it, but I’ve been dying to talk about it since the end of January, when I posted the second part of my thoughts on the show. So, you may be seeing more of it, but I’m unsure.

It’s also funny this post kind of relates to OWLS theme this month relating to mental illnesses, which I didn’t plan on purpose.

 

This post was a bit weird, but I really didn’t want to do two reviews in a row. And, this came to me suddenly, so I hope you enjoyed it. It’s not something I’ll do again any time soon, most likely. And, I’m sorry for posting late.

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